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[Sep. 3rd, 2010|05:49 pm] |
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Wow. So I haven't posted in ages. I guess LJ is kinda dead :(
I start back at uni soon. Hurrah. After failing last year it's put a lot of things into perspective. I've set myself the goal of getting A grades for every module and a 100% attendance record. Whether or not this happens is a different story all together.
I'm going to try and get into the habit of updating again. Even if it's just a few words each day on what I've done at uni. Maybe a new journal is in order? Fresh start n all that jazz. :)
Anyway. I hope everyone is good. I have to get ready for work now. x
New journal is plasticsharks (no idea how to link people with this so just add me :D ) |
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[Jul. 4th, 2010|03:46 pm] |
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I think I'm going to buy a horse. |
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[May. 20th, 2010|05:51 pm] |
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Okay. So I wondered why I wasn't seeing anyones posts. I wasn't bloody signed in.
I have nothing of any real importance to post right now. I'm a little bit miserable. I miss my red hair - I feel like I just blend in with everyone. Work isn't so bad anymore and I've stopped having mild panic attacks about it. I'm poorer than I've ever been but I also own more clothes that I ever have. I sit inside most days - except today - I went for a walk, took some photos and went to Ikea. My little brother is now a trainee manager at my work. My little brother also has a better car than me. I feel like a huge massive failure which I guess isn't helping my over all mood. Oh well. That's all for now.
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[Mar. 20th, 2010|04:07 am] |
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Oh wow.
So I've been meaning to update this for AGES. I just haven't got round to it. It's one of those things I just put off.
Anyway. Not an awful lot has been happening. The 'risk' I decided to take was a complete disaster. At least I know, tigers definitely do not change their stripes. My lovely friend summed it up nicely "Well, you're attracted to him. So clearly he's an arsehole" :) Haha.
I stopped the loan on the horse, I really wasn't enjoying it anymore and I've lost all my confidence. It was a huge relief to tell her I wasn't able to do it and she's completely cool with it as well. I haven't gone back to lessons either. Every time I go to make a phone call about lessons I chicken out.
The past few weeks have been horrible. I have no motivation to do anything except lie in my bed and read. Sometimes not even that. I know it's not right. But I don't really fancy the whole idea of going to talk to someone about it. I know I'm probably depressed but I don't know what could help. I think maybe that was part of the reason for giving up the horse, but it's really just an excuse. It's a miracle I have any friends left since I keep canceling on them with some rubbish. Mostly it's because I can't bring myself to get dressed. I'm hoping this is all just because of the uni disaster - having nothing to do all week then having to motivate myself to actually do something is harder than it seems - and the constant worry about getting back into second year has given me tmd from biting my bloody fingers. Anyway! I got back in, they only gave me a C. Fuckers. I tried getting a full time job to occupy my time, but really my heart isn't in it. Things will be picking up again at work soon.
Has anyone researched their family tree? I was thinking of doing mine sometime and now is a better time than any to start.
My reading list for this year has grown! I'm on the last installment of the Millennium Trilogy (starts with The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo). I was never that really into crime fiction but these are making me change my opinion. I read the first two in a week.
My poor kitty got diagnosed with kidney failure last month. I'm not sure I mentioned this already but it scares me shitless the thought of him dying. I genuinely do not think I'll cope.
I'm sure I'm forgetting something but whatever. It's late and I need some sleep. |
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[Feb. 11th, 2010|11:25 pm] |
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I can't believe that Alexander McQueen died. |
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[Feb. 7th, 2010|06:42 pm] |
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So Avatar was something else. I can't really say much else.
Bowling on Friday was good, even though I came second last and missed two times completely! The shame.
Since then I've had a crap couple of shifts at work and done not a lot else.
I went to Mills on Friday and we went for a walk around town. It was totally pissing it down but still actually nice to be out and about.
My cat got diagnosed with kidney failure on Friday as well. I spent most of last night crying because there's nothing I can do to make him better and it will end up killing him. Ugh.
Anyway. That's all for today.
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[Jan. 28th, 2010|07:12 pm] |
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Yesterday I went to see Jamie T at the Barrowlands. Natalie text me asking if I wanted to go, and I usually would have said no. But I thought fuck it, live a little and said okay! It was excellent. I was crushed, Natalie fell over and had about 5 guys land on top of her, I was ridiculously sweaty and my hair was an absolute state by the end of it all. Top night.
I stayed at Marks, had the worst sleep ever, woke up and got the 8:15 train home looking (and probably smelling) like a homeless person. Sexy.
Right now every single muscle in my body is in agony. It's the sort of pain that confirms how good a night was had. Haha.
Later on tonight I'm going to see Avatar in 3D with my brother and tomorrow we're all going out to Xscape for Debbies 20th. Good times.
I have a double shift this Saturday, no idea how mind, body and spirit will cope with 15 hours of work but we shall see!
I seem to have lost my credit card bill, does anyone know if I can go into the bank and ask them to send me out another one? Must. Destroy. Credit. Card. Worst idea I've ever had.
Love love.
p.s Jamie T pics can be seen here: http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=11037445&l=8b46191802&id=500360485 |
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[Jan. 26th, 2010|08:14 pm] |
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Ok so since my last post I've been to the horse loads! By loads I mean twice a week! Haha. But still, improvement. :) I've not been taking his bullshit anymore either, I guess I just needed to believe I was capable of getting on with it.
I've also completely sorted out my sleeping pattern. I wake up between 6:30 and 8:30am every single bloody day. And as much as this is a vast improvement on going to sleep at 1:00pm (yes you read corrrectly) I just don't know what the hell to do with my days!! So far this month I've had the grand total of ONE shift at work. I had to take a holiday just to have wages going into my bank. Absurd.
I've managed to read two books in one week. Oh how productive. Someone recommend me something.
Other than that I've not been doing much, meeting up with friends, cleaning my room and eating coconut cake.
p.s the new Lostprophets album is superb.
ALSO! I'm doing the 365 project. http://365project.org/cupcakey/365 please have a look and comment if you feel like it. I'm trying not to do anything overly arty and just make it a sort of general snapshot of my day!
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[Jan. 6th, 2010|09:51 pm] |
Horsey.
I really need to give myself a kick up the backside and get back to riding. No idea what's happened, I've just lost all confidence.
Thank you to everyone for your comments on my last post <3 STILL crying but I'll survive. It's comforting to know that people care :)
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